Hi Honey, I hope you don’t mind but I am sharing you with my little world. I’m gonna keep telling you how much I love you, how much I always will, and someone else might read it too. It’ll be good for me; it helps our love live on a bit more. Some days I miss you so much it’s hard to function, life isn’t the same anymore. I know I never have to let you go, you can stay a part of me, in the very fabric of my soul, in the deepest part of my heart. But man, I really miss you here beside me. I miss you holding my hand, talking about our day, the way you were Dad to our kids, cuddling beside me, driving with you, your great coffee, how you could fix about anything, face challenges together…you know, everything!
You had me totally convinced you know that? That two really are better than one, I gave in and loved you with everything in me I could. It wasn’t always a smooth road, but thanks for walking it with me, bumps and all. Actually, some of those bumps added strength once we figured them out. You were good like that. Oh honey, you’re like home to me, warm, loving and comfy, I’m so damn homesick without you. I promised on your birthday that I would find hope again, and I will, we will. I know you want me to live my life here until I get to come there. The sun peaks through the clouds some days, it’s not searing, but I know seasons don’t last forever, they change, no two ever the same. It’s odd and scary to make plans without you, like I’m leaving you behind. I think you are praying for us though, and my plans are still our plans as long as I lean into God and let Him lead me. I love you my honey babe, play a song for me up there, and make it loud. xxxxx
January 23rd, 2014 at 12:15 am
My sister, you are the strongest woman I know! I love you so much you will never get it.
AND you bet me to it, he he he
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January 23rd, 2014 at 12:21 am
Thanks, and go to it sis. xx
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January 23rd, 2014 at 6:18 am
Oh my, I cried ……again and again! Your sister is right Janene, you are a very strong woman. Keep writing….. xx
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January 23rd, 2014 at 8:37 am
thanks my friend x
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January 23rd, 2014 at 7:39 am
Your letter just makes me love and respect my husband more, not to take our time together for granted. As you only know to well we never know what is around the corner or what our life journey has install for us. All we can do is fix our eyes on Jesus. Thanks for sharing your heart Janene. Xx
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January 23rd, 2014 at 8:37 am
thats great Karen, love is better when not taken for granted x
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January 23rd, 2014 at 8:45 am
me, crying again… thanks for keeping it so raw and real Janene… love lasts a lifetime and then some. xo
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January 23rd, 2014 at 8:47 am
yep that’s something I cling to x
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January 27th, 2014 at 3:53 am
love never dies Janene.
Paul will never die as long as he lives in your heart, which will be forever, no matter where life takes you. You will live and love. Love begets love. The barrel is never empty. Love is not a pie with 8 slices. The more you love, the more you love, love is part of you, a piece of you. And there is so much more to give. Your children will live Paul every day. He will be there in your grandchildren to come. your children are Paul’s love with skin on. his love is still here.
Love is a precious thing. It rules the world – really – love has defeated death. it is why we all reach for it with outstretched hands.
Nothing can separate us from love. Not life, not death, not things present, not things to come. Nothing can separate us from love.
Janene, keep writing.
Your writing will help others and it will help you.
Aunty di
xx
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January 27th, 2014 at 8:45 am
thank you, lovely words xx
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