The death of my partner was one of those unfathomable events in life. It took me were I didn’t want to go and brought with it such  depth of pain, loss and loneliness that I thought I could not surely survive.  This page is an attempt to heal. A place for my grief and my love for my Paul to be sent out into the world. It may include letters, thoughts and the healing quotes of others that have soothed my ache so far. Please respect my personal space, it may be raw…but it will always be real. I have faith in God and believe He holds my heart tenderly and is walking beside and leading the way gently as I begin to navigate life anew.


The facts. Paul and I were married 20 years, 4 months, 2 weeks and 3 days! I loved him deeply, and he reciprocated beautifully. We have 3 children and although it is their story too, I will leave them to pen their own thoughts, their own way, and in their own time.  We moved from a large city in 2011 to begin a new chapter. 11 months later he was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma, cancer of the plasma cells. The worst news then was that he may only have 10 years to live, the horrible reality was only 17 months. After a partial remission, the cancer seemed to explode. After months in hospital, brain surgery, radiation, chemo and the fatal stem cell transplant, he was gone…


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